my beloved

I am my beloved’s 
and my beloved is mine…
Song of Solomon 6:3

gasoline and roller blades.

Today, my pear has a slight taste like gasoline. my imagination?  i keep biting into it to see if I am making it up. the pear is half eaten now. i should just toss it.

Phil and I found our old roller blades from our college days. I decided that this weekend, we HAVE to go roller blading in the hood.


the remotest abyss.

“To have a master means that there is one who knows me better than I know myself, one who is closer than a friend, one who fathoms the remotest abyss of my heart and satisfies it, one who has brought me into the secure sense that He has met and solved every perplexity and problem of my mind.

-Oswald Chambers

Thank you, Jesus.

Love / Fire

My mentor, Jan, wrote this and sent it to me today. I hope it is as beautiful to you as it is to me.

LOVE/FIRE: Thought for the day

Someone asked me a question about a married couple;
Whether I thought they were ever “in love”
not just did they love each other but were they “in love.”
My answer was
Yes, that he admits he was smitten the day he saw her.
Drove him crazy.
And, the reason they were married as soon as he could.
He believes she was made for him
She would also say she was smitten/twitterpated and created for him.
Ten years and two children later, I think they are still in love,
not like they were,
That spark that gets the fire going
Enough to get married and have babies,
Does not remain the same;
But, as the fire burns,
While it’s not raging anymore,
The coals are even hotter than the raging fire
Because it is now a product of much time and fuel
Necessary for the long haul
Of a lifetime together
Will the fire go out?
Of course
Without steady and consistent fuel added.
I’ve heard it said,
And believe it to be true:
You marry for and with passion
Your passion turns,
 in time,
to Mission,
then further down the road
it turns to companionship
I think that is similar to our relationship with God
First smitten and overwhelmed with passion for Him and His love
Then a desire, and call, and the giftings,
 to serve- Mission
Then when :
in the day that the watchmen of the house tremble,
and mighty men stoop,
the grinding ones stand idle
because they are few,
and those who look through windows
grow dim;
Eccl. 12:3
Our relationship with Him, and him, becomes one of prayer and companionship
I hope to keep the fire of that smittenness of/with God/my husband, going all the days of my
life by daily adding fuel to the fire
Just because a couple are in the mission stage of their lives,
Does not mean you can’t have the passion part
You just have to work harder at it
You’ve gathered all the close fuel; sticks, branches, logs;
Now you have to look harder and further.
If you see your relationship as a fire,
You realize that just as one party gathers the wood
she does it to lay it on the fire
and the fire in turn warms her
I feel that the women are the gatherers, by nature
The men are the fire
If the woman continues to find and gather and lay the wood upon the fire
The fire will automatically cover and protect and warm the woman
So who wins?
But each one is individually and differently designed-
Male and Female
I see more and more clearly and starkly, how innate and immutable
Are those God given roles of gender;
Maleness and Femaleness.
One is not better or less than the other,
But the roles are strictly given and defined by God.
And while our culture has fed lies to both men and women
And we do not know what those God given roles are any more
In the innermost part of our being we do know them
And we both, male and female,
React violently when they are broken
We see trespasses rampant and the result is dead fires.
We have raised a generation of selfish and lazy people.
People who no longer stoke or feed the fire
With God
And with each other
And lazy people not only lose the flame
They die of the cold

Homemade sea salt caramels

I really want to make these!

Homemade sea salt caramels

PREP TIME: Requires a few hours of cooling
COOK TIME: 20 minutes
YIELD: 16 to 20 Caramels

Vegetable oil
1 cup sugar
1/4 cup water
1/4 cup light corn syrup
1 cup heavy cream
4 tablespoons unsalted butter
1 teaspoon sea salt, plus extra for sprinkling
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract


1.  Line an 8-inch square baking pan with parchment paper.  Lightly brush the paper with the vegetable oil.

2.  In a small pot, bring the cream, butter, and one teaspoon of the sea salt to a simmer, over medium heat.  Do not let it boil.  Once it has reached a simmer, turn off the heat, and set it aside.

3.  In a deep saucepan, combine the water, corn syrup, and sugar.  Over medium-high heat, stir only until the sugar has dissolved.  Then allow the mixture to boil, without stirring, until the mixture is a warm, golden brown.  Watch very carefully, as the caramel can burn quickly toward the end.  (It can be helpful to use a wooden spoon and drip some of the caramel onto a white plate to gauge the exact color).

4.  When the sugar mixture is done, remove it from the heat and slowly add the cream mixture to the sugar mixture.  Be careful because it will bubble up violently.  Stir in the vanilla.

5.  Return the mixture to the heat and cook over medium heat until a candy thermometer reads 248 degrees (firm ball), about 10 minutes.  Pour the caramel into the prepared pan.  (Don’t scrape the pot).  Refrigerate for a few hours, until firm.

6.  Remove the caramel from the refrigerator and allow it to come close to room temperature.  Pry the caramel from the pan.  On a cutting board, cut the square in half.  Using parchment paper, roll each piece of caramel into a tight 8- to 10-inch log.  Sprinkle the logs with sea salt.  Cut each log into 3/4-inch or 1-inch pieces.  Individually wrap each caramel in glassine or parchment paper, twisting the ends.  Store in the refrigerator or in an air-tight container.

Judicial Peach’s Recipe and Photos.