A Call to Anguish.

Without words this morning.


Love / Fire

My mentor, Jan, wrote this and sent it to me today. I hope it is as beautiful to you as it is to me.

LOVE/FIRE: Thought for the day

Someone asked me a question about a married couple;
Whether I thought they were ever “in love”
not just did they love each other but were they “in love.”
My answer was
Yes, that he admits he was smitten the day he saw her.
Drove him crazy.
And, the reason they were married as soon as he could.
He believes she was made for him
She would also say she was smitten/twitterpated and created for him.
Ten years and two children later, I think they are still in love,
not like they were,
That spark that gets the fire going
Enough to get married and have babies,
Does not remain the same;
But, as the fire burns,
While it’s not raging anymore,
The coals are even hotter than the raging fire
Because it is now a product of much time and fuel
Necessary for the long haul
Of a lifetime together
Will the fire go out?
Of course
Without steady and consistent fuel added.
I’ve heard it said,
And believe it to be true:
You marry for and with passion
Your passion turns,
 in time,
to Mission,
then further down the road
it turns to companionship
I think that is similar to our relationship with God
First smitten and overwhelmed with passion for Him and His love
Then a desire, and call, and the giftings,
 to serve- Mission
Then when :
in the day that the watchmen of the house tremble,
and mighty men stoop,
the grinding ones stand idle
because they are few,
and those who look through windows
grow dim;
Eccl. 12:3
Our relationship with Him, and him, becomes one of prayer and companionship
I hope to keep the fire of that smittenness of/with God/my husband, going all the days of my
life by daily adding fuel to the fire
Just because a couple are in the mission stage of their lives,
Does not mean you can’t have the passion part
You just have to work harder at it
You’ve gathered all the close fuel; sticks, branches, logs;
Now you have to look harder and further.
If you see your relationship as a fire,
You realize that just as one party gathers the wood
she does it to lay it on the fire
and the fire in turn warms her
I feel that the women are the gatherers, by nature
The men are the fire
If the woman continues to find and gather and lay the wood upon the fire
The fire will automatically cover and protect and warm the woman
So who wins?
But each one is individually and differently designed-
Male and Female
I see more and more clearly and starkly, how innate and immutable
Are those God given roles of gender;
Maleness and Femaleness.
One is not better or less than the other,
But the roles are strictly given and defined by God.
And while our culture has fed lies to both men and women
And we do not know what those God given roles are any more
In the innermost part of our being we do know them
And we both, male and female,
React violently when they are broken
We see trespasses rampant and the result is dead fires.
We have raised a generation of selfish and lazy people.
People who no longer stoke or feed the fire
With God
And with each other
And lazy people not only lose the flame
They die of the cold

Homemade sea salt caramels

I really want to make these!

Homemade sea salt caramels

PREP TIME: Requires a few hours of cooling
COOK TIME: 20 minutes
YIELD: 16 to 20 Caramels

Vegetable oil
1 cup sugar
1/4 cup water
1/4 cup light corn syrup
1 cup heavy cream
4 tablespoons unsalted butter
1 teaspoon sea salt, plus extra for sprinkling
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract


1.  Line an 8-inch square baking pan with parchment paper.  Lightly brush the paper with the vegetable oil.

2.  In a small pot, bring the cream, butter, and one teaspoon of the sea salt to a simmer, over medium heat.  Do not let it boil.  Once it has reached a simmer, turn off the heat, and set it aside.

3.  In a deep saucepan, combine the water, corn syrup, and sugar.  Over medium-high heat, stir only until the sugar has dissolved.  Then allow the mixture to boil, without stirring, until the mixture is a warm, golden brown.  Watch very carefully, as the caramel can burn quickly toward the end.  (It can be helpful to use a wooden spoon and drip some of the caramel onto a white plate to gauge the exact color).

4.  When the sugar mixture is done, remove it from the heat and slowly add the cream mixture to the sugar mixture.  Be careful because it will bubble up violently.  Stir in the vanilla.

5.  Return the mixture to the heat and cook over medium heat until a candy thermometer reads 248 degrees (firm ball), about 10 minutes.  Pour the caramel into the prepared pan.  (Don’t scrape the pot).  Refrigerate for a few hours, until firm.

6.  Remove the caramel from the refrigerator and allow it to come close to room temperature.  Pry the caramel from the pan.  On a cutting board, cut the square in half.  Using parchment paper, roll each piece of caramel into a tight 8- to 10-inch log.  Sprinkle the logs with sea salt.  Cut each log into 3/4-inch or 1-inch pieces.  Individually wrap each caramel in glassine or parchment paper, twisting the ends.  Store in the refrigerator or in an air-tight container.

Judicial Peach’s Recipe and Photos.


A bit of Oswald.


Casting down imaginations and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God. -2 Corinthians 10:5

Deliverance from sin is not deliverance from human nature. There are things in human nature, such as prejudices, which the saint has to destroy by neglect; and other things which have to be destroyed by violence, i.e., by the Divine strength imparted by God’s Spirit. There are some things over which we are not to fight, but to stand still in and see the salvation of God; but every theory or conception which erects itself as a rampart against the knowledge of God is to be determinedly demolished by drawing on God’s power, not by fleshly endeavour or compromise (v. 4).

It is only when God has altered our disposition and we have entered into the experience of sanctification that the fight begins. The warfare is not against sin; we can never fight against sin: Jesus Christ deals with sin in Redemption. The conflict is along the line of turning our natural life into a spiritual life, and this is never done easily, nor does God intend it to be done easily. It is done only by a series of moral choices. God does not make us holy in the sense of character; He makes us holy in the sense of innocence, and we have to turn that innocence into holy character by a series of moral choices. These choices are continually in antagonism to the entrenchments of our natural life, the things which erect themselves as ramparts against the knowledge of God. We can either go back and make ourselves of no account in the Kingdom of God, or we can determinedly demolish these things and let Jesus bring another son to glory.

-Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest

This devotional was read to me yesterday by my amazing boss. Thank you, Mallory, for continually pointing me to Christ.


So school started this week…


I passed about 6 or 7 clumps of high schoolers waiting for their buses on my drive to work this morning…… awkward anyone?

Standing. Staring straight ahead. A few are Texting but there seems to be no socializing. None at all. I could easily mistake them for zombies. As I drove by, the awkwardness was SO thick that it passed into my car, and I felt awkward.

Has anyone else encountered this social psychological reality?